i confess...

• when i'm at work and it's really busy, i get mad at the patients. sometimes i get mad when they're demanding morphine thinking to myself: in the civil war days all people had was a shot of whiskey and a stick to bite down on as the doctor was sawing their limbs off. other times i'm mad at a patient for being alergic to a popular drug, making me have to go out of my way to get a drug that we barely ever use and, therefore, is in some random god-forsaken place, or worse, we have to get it from another hospital. but most of all i get mad when i have to fill a patient's order for an insane amount of drugs that no human being should be allowed to consume in one day only to have to credit all those drugs back to that patient's account the next day because, well, as it turns out no one can consume that amount of drugs in one day. i know it's wrong on a number levels that i actually get mad at people for being sick or injured. i know it isn't their fault, but i need to project my frusteration onto something and they're just such easy targets. weak and injured people usually are.

• i just got done reading the book of acts and i'm on to romans. i admit that when i read paul i hear him speaking with charleton heston's voice in the ten commandments. i try my best to picture him as a short dark-skinned jewish man speaking in greek, but it just doesn't work.

• i'm really into the band vampire weekend. and i discovered them from watching MTV, which i find incredibly disturbing.

• i start spring arbor tonight. i secretly hope i'm going to find it to be very easy. i also hope it doesn't cut into my blogging like it did last semester. we'll see.